Two Long Years

Today has been two years since my mom passed. Two very long years. Mother’s Day cards are filling stores. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve thought about buying one for my mom. It’s almost like my brain forgets for a moment. I would like to say it’s gotten easier. I guess in some ways it has, but the…

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March 24, 2015

Two amazing things happened for me last night. First, I’ve been praying that Owen would learn to sleep by me on the nights when he wakes to be fed. Up to now, I’ve felt a little like I’m in a wrestling match. He wiggles and crawls, pulls hair and is pretty much impossible to sleep with- it has made for…

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Old Photos

Courtney and I have spent quite a bit of time scanning photos we found at Mama’s house a year ago. It’s been fun to see my family in some photos I had never seen before. There are moments that make me sad as I think to those who have passed, and those that just take my breath: My grandmother is…

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One Year Ago…

One year ago, today. My life completely changed. It’s not that I didn’t know it was going to happen. I just expected to have longer. I expected her to hang on for at least a year- that IS what we were told on *that* day, more than a year back. We sat in her surgeon’s office as he told us…

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Missing Mama

I’m missing my mom today. Our newest blessing is soon to arrive. There have been no homemade gifts from Grandmommy. There have been no evening calls to find out how things are going. She hasn’t gone with us for coming home outfits, nor offered to come out and help with the cooking to stock our freezer. Has it really been…

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It Was a Year Ago, Today

Tracy / February 13, 2014

One year ago today, at this moment, I was sitting in a hospital waiting room. The morning had been uneventful…well, if you count me making a wrong turn on the interstate and us ending up quite a bit late. She and I laughed pretty much all the way to the hospital. I was convinced she would never let me drive…

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Mama’s Cheese Ball Recipe

Tracy / January 6, 2014

Each and every year, Mama would either make us a Cheese Ball for the New Year, or bring the ingredients out for us to make one for our family. It was an annual tradition. So many little things like this, have reminded me of her this year. I’m ever grateful that this is what she gave Courtney on her 13th…

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Dreaming…

Tracy / November 3, 2013

Yesterday was six months since my dear Mama passed away. I had honestly been dreading the date. I knew it was coming I was silently thinking about it each time someone mentioned an appointment, or I had to look in my calendar for some reason. It just seems too surreal to be true…even so many months later. I couldn’t hold…

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Spider Lilly

Tracy / October 3, 2013

Though we’ve had these flowers bloom in the backyard in various places, I’ve never had one bloom in my front yard. This year, this little guy bloomed- right outside of my Mama’s bedroom window! It is beautiful!! Courtney went out and took these photos last week. This morning, I decided to read up on it HERE. These flowers are beginning…

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Debi

Tracy / October 2, 2013

Please be praying for Debi’s family this morning. When my mama was first diagnosed with cancer, I went searching for anyone who had the same diagnosis and prognosis.  I just wanted to know we weren’t alone. As it turned out, I only found this one lady.  Uterine cancer is completely curable if caught early enough.  Caught later, there really is…

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missing Mama

Tracy / September 10, 2013

This week has been just plain hard. I keep thinking it will get better.  I hope it does soon. I have been going through my desk this week.  A good bit of what was in my desk is what was in her desk.  In an effort to put it away, we had placed everything there.  It has taken me this…

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today

Tracy / August 28, 2013

There are very few moments in life that take my breath. I’m not talking in that exciting, kind of blissful way. This is a ‘I feel like I’m going to be sick. I can’t breathe. I want to scream at the top of my lungs, but I can only weep’ kind of way. The moments following Mama’s surgery, hearing her…

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